September 24, 2018

Remember the Fight

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Sometimes the fight is physical. Sometimes mental. Quite often, emotional. Life takes no prisoners and life doesn't promise you easy. Your highest highs can be followed by the lowest lows. 

There have been quite a few times over the past months I haven't wanted/chosen to fight. I've sat back. I've cried. I've said "it isn't fair". I've thought "now, really"? There have been days of sobbing through the night, desperately praying for a new path. A light at the end of a tunnel. 

Other times I've said "eff this, I got this". I've dug in. I've done the work and sometimes been rewarded.

Funny, the times I've chosen to fight I've always felt better. I've always found my way. And here we are now. Two weeks out of training and I'm doing decent. I'm not crying every night, doubting myself and my path. I'm learning. Trying. Working. Choosing joy. 

Will this be my path forever? Probably not. 

Do I want this to be my career? No, not really. 

But for now, I'm fighting and working daily. I'm making the effort to try and learn from this place. From this path laid out in front of me. I've had some really good days, some good days a couple BLAH days, but that's life. 

On this Monday I want you to remember the fight. The reason. The why. YOU CAN DO THI!

September 14, 2018

Weekly Wins: First Week at the New Job

throw confetti, duh. #bandofun
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YAY, it's FRIDAY! Kind of, for me. I work tomorrow, but that's okay because I've made it almost to end of my first work week. WAHOOOO WAHOOOO! Let's count up the wins.

+ I didn't blank out my first two days of work on the floor. I wasn't perfect, but I wasn't awful which is huge.

+ Sleep has been a tad bit better, which is a huge win. I've been suffering extremely painful back spasms every night since June and any night it's not an eight, I'm grateful. I have an appointment set with a specialist next month, fingers crossed. 

+ I had a successful dermatologist appointment {bye bye bad mole} and a semi successful acupuncture appointment. I think I'll need a few more needle treatments, but I'm thankful she squeezed me in so quickly.

+ Le Husband has been super fantastic about cooking during my work week, he's the best. 

How was your week? What can I cheer on for you?

September 10, 2018

HERE WE GO

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Friends, we are here. Starting a new job today. A new job I wasn't even sure I was going to get becasuse the training was so tough. A new job I thought was mine, not four more weeks of interviews and points. 

The past four weeks have been some of the hardest I've ever had with a job. Minus the management job because there was no support. Nada. This was just hard and I learned a lot and I busted my tail. And now we are here. 

Starting this week, my schedule is created for the next month and a new normal begins. Hopefully I'll be able to keep teaching and hopefully training, but who knows right now. This is a big opportunity and I'm praying I'm smart enough and strong enough to make this a great job. 

Wishing you a wonderful week, friends.

September 7, 2018

Five Years


"You're the reason I believe in love
And you're the answer to my prayers form up above
All we need is just the two of us
My dreams came true because of you"

Happy Five Years, my love! 

August 31, 2018

Weekly Wins: Looking To The Small

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Doing what I can to get through the week. To get to the next day. To try and get better at this new job and see it as a test I can pass. Not something I am going to fail. I've been in a bad headspace for awhile, because this has been so hard, but after a couple shoutouts on Instagram I've turned it around. 

I can't predict the future. I can control my thoughts each morning. I can decide how I will act. How I will react. How I will learn. How I will fuel my fire. How I will succeed. I can control that. 

So my weekly wins are as follows:

+ Reaching a small goal at work this week. 

+ Family supporting me no matter what.

+ Le Husband making dinner every night and cleaning up too. 

+ Having a couple appointments this weekend that could come to fruition.

+ All the support of people at work who see my effort and drive.

+ Knowledge that no matter what I will be okay.

Believe in yourself friends, I'm cheering for you < 3 !

August 23, 2018

Radom Thoughts for the Week

Hello again, friends.

I should be studying as I write this, but I miss writing and I miss this space. So I'll quickly recap things going on in life and in my head right now:

+ This job is pushing me to and past my limit. I am drowning in new terms, plans, pricing, devices, systems. learning to sell, understanding the how and why and really getting outside my comfort zone. I've cried at work {UGH} and freaked out to my mentor more than once because I'm so scared of not doing well. Everyone seems to think I can do this, I just need to believe in myself and buckle down.

+ I miss my flexible schedule. A lot. I have had late nights, early mornings, no workouts, not enough sleep and my body is all kinds of crazy right now. I miss not having early Mondays. I miss not getting home late and having to constantly wake up early. Trying to keep up with training is taking a lot out of me too. I worried to lose the tiny bit of momentum I had with this new job. I haven't posted much fitness on Instagram nor on my other blog, which makes me sad.

+ Figuring out my workout schedule is hard. I used to teach nine classes a week which meant working out each time I taught. Maybe not to the extend I would normally push myself, but I was moving my body. I have only been able to work out one day since starting last week and while my body is enjoying the time off, it is also craving movement and the gym.

+ Le Husband has had my back like no other and it has held me together like no other during this season. He has be there in every capacity and I am ever so grateful. Marriage is hard, but it is so nice when you have someone to lean on during the trying, frustrating and crazy times.



August 13, 2018

NEW START BEGINS NOW

Today beings a new week for everyone. But today, for me, it begins so much more. 

A new job. 

A new path. 

A different way to make money. 

A new schedule.

Four weeks of training. 

A steady paycheck.

Leaping outside my comfort zone. 

Time to be the new kid. Time to learn. Time to pay attention and sit still. 

Good wishes are so appreciated. I wish you a wonderful week, friends.