September 22, 2017

Weekly Wins: Finally Fall

|| Fall has finally arrived, which means I'm excited about the new season. I'm a summer girl, through and through, so I despise when people try to make fall happen early [stop trying to make fall early happen, ha]. I understand people further south and west need the relief, but I love me some hot days and get sad when the first crips shows up. Now it's officially fall so time to get ready for new clothing [!!!], football tailgates, potlucks, cool nights and scarves. woop
|| This post happened, woohoo! I've been exhausted from my studying and trip over the weekend so computer time has been very limited. Launch for new releases is coming up so I've also been getting ready for allll that fun. Yay for two posts this week, ha.

|| Kickball on Thursday nights has started and it's so much fun. I know it might sound trite to y'all, but the friendships formed from playing kickball is just something so incredible and I'm glad we have another group. They are fun and we win a lot. 


|| My weekly purchased meals have been BOMBdotCOM this week, yum.

|| The water is working in my office, halllllleeeelluuuuuuu! 

|| Twice during the week I've slept for five hours straight. INCREDIBLE, so thankful to have sleep again.

|| THIS MEME! #hahaheeheehahaho
How was your week? What are some wins?

September 20, 2017

Surprise Birthday Weekend

Oh what a weekend it was. Yes, I now today is Wednesday, but I was way too exhausted to get any kind of post up for Monday. My body is still recovering from the crazy week that was study time and there was no rest this weekend because, HELLO, family time!

Friday I headed to the gym to waste time before my flight. It felt really good to BE at the gym after passing my NASM PT exam. Everyone was super excited for me which was super nice, too. I had a fantastic workout, showered and changed then headed to airport. It's so nice having MAYBE a five minute wait to get through security, cheers to tiny airports :)!

Flight was a lil delayed, but thankfully not as much as expected. I was meeting my family at dinner so I had to dress fancier than normal on the plane. Super fun wearing my felt hat to cover the crazy hairs.

 Thankfully the flight was super uneventful, I even had my own row and we landed pretty close to the expected time. I scurried to a cab, so I could meet the famjam at Ruth Chris' for the big 30th birthday dinner. The family was done eating when I arrived but they had ordered my meal and it came quite quickly.

Oh yes, I SAID FAMILY because we flew SPORTYSPICE in from Arizona as a surprise. I wasn't able to see the exchange happen but saw video and it was so perfect. Lil Babyspice had NO IDEA! After a month of planning it was so nice for everything to come together for the special moment. Being together as our family of five was so incredible, I can't even describe the feeling.

 Once dinner was over, we all headed home for some drinks, hang out sissy time and prep for the next day. Everyone was pretty tired so it was a midnight bedtime with an early morning. Sportyspice and I jumped up early, headed to Trader Joes to grab a few snacks for the fiesta. The party was at a winery and we had all the girls sign up to bring bread, cheese, fruit and crackers to share, we just wanted to get a few extra special pieces.

We tried to keep as much of the guest list a secret as possible and it was fun watching Babyspice's face light up each time someone entered the room. Once everyone arrived at my parent's house we all caravanned to a gorgeous winery twenty minutes west. It was thankfully a GORGEOUS day and we arrived early enough to grab a two tables.

The day was spent wine tasting, snacking, eating cake, taking pictures and just celebrating our darling 30 year old. She has a fantastic group of women who support her and we were so thankful they all took time out of their weekend to join in our plan. Everyone was so wonderful during the planning process and I was beyond thankful everything worked out so well in the end.

Happy happy happy birthday, sweet darling girl!

As evening rolled around people began heading home, with one friend staying with us for the evening. The four of us headed out to dinner while my parents went to different functions and it was so fun being back at our 'family' place. The rest of the evening was spent watching movies, drinking more wine and just chilling out together.

Sunday morning I was up early again to head down south to visit my bestest friend and her brood. It was a morning full of kids, feedings, naps, chatting up, hugging and advice. I'm happy with life in Tennessee now, but man do I miss my gal. So glad things we were able to catch up for a short time.

Too soon the morning turned into afternoon and then evening and we were eating dinner then getting ready to head to the airport. The weekend was such a whirlwind trying to get everything perfect but also just being together. We hadn't just been a family of five in so long and I just tried to soak up all the moments because we all won't be together again until November. I'll be honest, I cried when they dropped me off at the airport, I just did not want to leave. It was quite sudden and unexpected, but hugging my dear family peeps broke my heart again. Being a grown up can stink, but I'm so thankful to have something so special.

I miss you family, so much! Can't wait for Thanksgiving, it's going to be so fun!

September 15, 2017

Weekly Wins: I PASSED & Family VISIT!


Last night I retook {see the first try here} my NASM PT certification test and saw those four beautiful letters, P A S S ! After seeing the words failed in June this was such a welcome relief. Y'all, I cried in the car again. This time tears of joy because this has been such a long few months and SUPER long week studying like crazy. Which is part of the reason I've been silent all week. The other reasons had to do with with Irma and September 11th looming. I just didn't have to drive to come here with everything else so serious. But also, I've been so immersed in studying I've barely made the rounds reading blogs, on Instagram or even Facebook. I hated tell everyone, here and IRLI failed last time and was determined NOT to do it again.

So I studied. And I bought the NASM APP. And I studied some more. I stopped taking extra classes. I didn't sub for anyone but my favorites {yes, that's how it can work}. I spent at least four hours at work studying, broken up throughout the day. I credit my passing to the NASM APP and the fact my job is so chill right now I can study away without being bothered. The past few days have been extremely stressful, both mentally and physically and I'm so grateful it is over. Thank you to everyone for cheering me on when asked. For believing in me. For answering my texts when I freaked out. The support here is incredible, I'm so so so so lucky. YAY WINNING!

Another big win for the week: Today I'm flying back HOME -- yes home -- to celebrate Babyspice's 30th birthday. Sportyspice and I put our heads together last month and put together a fun winery picnic with some of her nearest and dearest friends. She knows part of the fun planned, but we have a few things up our sleeve and I honestly just can't wait to BE HOME and hug on her. It will be nice to see family and sleep in my old bed, too. Cheers to a fun VA WEEKEND!
Cira a few years ago. I want her arms!

What are your weekly wins? Would anyone be interested in a weekly wins link up? I know Fridays are kind of saturated, but I personally enjoy celebrating the 'wins' of the week, especially after a long one. Any takers? Let me know in the comments!

Wishing you all a wonderful weekend! Lots and lots of love and cheers!

September 8, 2017

Weekly Wins

A little late today, but ain't no thang. Late seems to be the theme as I forgot to set my alarm last night so jumped up 20 minutes late this morning. Big win getting out of the house in 20 minutes, with breakfast.

>> All from everyone yesterday with our four year anniversary. Someone commented it seems like I was JUST building up to the wedding and now here we are four years later. WOW! So thankful we chose each other!

>> FINALLY sharing the news about Sportyspice and lil bean. Gosh it's been hard to keep the secret!

>> Last night I had dinner and drinks with a new/good friend since Le Husband was out of town. It's so nice to find someone who I can relate in so many different aspects of life. She's wonderful, her husband is a friend as well and we just get each other. So grateful for new friendships.

>> Tonight we have a reservation downtown for our anniversary dinner. Nothing huge, owning a house and planning for big trips later has us being smart about dollar bills right now, just cards and time spent together. #qualitytime

>> Tomorrow is college football SATURDAY, woohoo! It's going to be a day of all football as we head down to Neyland Stadium to tailgate on my grandfather's house boat, stay for the first half then bike home to get ready to watch the BUCKEYES at home. YES, FOOTBALL!

>> I helped a semi back up and down the short road in front of work and didn't break anything, WOOP!

I hope you all have a wonderful weekend. Dearest Flordia friends, please be safe. This thing is no joke and please heed the warnings if you are asked to evacuate. During my Katrina relief work EVERYONE I talked to spoke about how they wished they had left or were glad they did. I love you all tons and there are lots of hotels here in Tennessee you can stay in or stay with us. Reach out to us or others if you need to go somewhere. LOOOOOOVE!

September 7, 2017


Four years married. Four years ago we pledged to each other, in front of God and our families, for better or worse. Four years ago we committed to walk life together, no matter what. Four years ago we smiled and celebrated and cheeresd!

Oh my love, year three to four has indeed been a for better or worse. The beginning of year three brought our month in Europe, something we had talked, talked, talked about and FINALLY made happen. Those were some of the happiest days of my life, eating, traveling, exploring, drinking, lounging, releaxing, learning and loving you. We had THE BEST TIME EVER. Having you as my life partner there to experience everything made it so special.

Then we moved. We moved with excitement, anticipation, hope and a plan. We were ready. Then life happened. And one week turned into one month. Then two. Then three. Suddenly we were looking at six months of a change which was unlike anything we expected. It was hard. So incredibly hard. We were so frustrated and so angry and so immersed in the darkness we forgot to take care of each other.

We forgot why we said "I do." 

And then the clouds broke with sun streaming through to finally shine down. We bought our FIRST HOUSE and have been pouring ourselves into making it our home. The sun reminded us of our why, of our reason for choosing each other forever, of nine seven two thousand thirteen. The best day every because we became one as husband and wife.

Year three into four can only be described as our learning year. We learned who we are at the core, separately and as a couple. We learned what hurts each other most and what is needed when times are really, really, really tough. This year we learned words hurt, a lot. But, words can also chase away a bad day, rescue each there from that feeling of drowning and words like YES, can change everything. We learned how easy it is to turn on the mean and how hard it is to swallow pride. We learned that coming unyoked is tough because the load is not carried equally.

Life is better as we start year four. Easier. Happier and more put together than year three. I chose the picture above for a few reasons. A representation of walking TOGETHER through life, the good and the bad. A moment where you carried something for me so quickly and easily. We are in step, our eyes on the same destination and we are together.

My dearest husband, thank you for choosing me. After the hard days, after the easy days, and even after the days we don't treat each other the best, thank you. Sleeping next to you at night I know we can conquer anything. I have learned we are truly a team if we work together and I've learned I wouldn't want to do life with anyone else. Happy anniversary!

year one, year two, year three

Before I go, I have to share one more thing. I am so excited to FINALLY announce, SPORTYSPICE and her husband are pregnant with their FIRST CHILD, due sometime in early March. We found out she was pregnant VERY early, back when she was here in July and it was the most special moment getting to hug her and share in the news all together. I am so thrilled for her and her husband and can't wait to give the belly a rub in November. Oh, and let me mention -- because girl deserves props -- she placed 2nd in a bikini fitness competition last weekend! My idol right now :)!

September 6, 2017


celebrating four years of marriage on Thursday, wow! mushy post to come on this topic, of course :)!

watching reruns until my shows come back. bring it NCIS/Elementary/Blue Bloods

welcoming a new teaching schedule for fitness classes next month and I'm SO EXCITED.

preparing for my big retake of the NASM PT exam. egad!

photographing myself on Instagram story. #imeannothingelseisgoingon

anticipating some wonderful news dropping tomorrow.

hoping Florida is not hit as badly as predicted with Irma. #stayawayhurricanes

loving how America has come together for those affected by Hurricane Harvey. JJ Watts foundation has raised over 18.5 million dollars because of social media, can you believe it? (If you're still looking to donate, might I suggest his foundation or food banks instead of the Red Cross? Not wanting to get into a debate, but they are pennies to the dollar compared to other organizations giving 100% to those in need.)

remembering how loved we felt on our wedding day. such fond memories.

August 30, 2017

How the Heart Hurts for Houston


Yesterday I realized it was the 12 year anniversary of Hurricane Katrina landing in Louisiana and Mississippi. Twelve years ago I watched at my temp job as winds, water and levees breaking destroyed homes, towns, cities, roads, business, churches and lives. I felt in my bones I was called to help and joined my first mission trip that October. Five trips to MS and NOLA showed me the devastation of mucking out and cleaning out homes. Showed me the heart of people. Showed me the rebirth. The regrowth of a town. Of a city. How people were willing to run in and help. 

And here we are again. Glued to the news, watching Houston flood. Watching people flee for safety. Watching and crying as again people are driven from their homes. Some for the second time as many NOLA people migrated to Houston after Katrina. Heartbreaking. Beyond, just beyond. 

We are also seeing the good in humanity. The people running in to help. Borrowing boats to rescue people trapped. Churches opening their places to shelter. Furniture stores letting people rest and sleep in them because their homes were destroyed. JJ Watt constantly raising the bar for donations because people continue to answer the call. Please, if you haven't, answer the call. Be it money. Time. Things. Resources. Boats. Prayers. Answer the call, whatever it maybe. 

Do your research and make sure you are funding people, not pockets. UMCOR is an incredible organization who makes sure 100% of donates are used for help. Their motto is "First in, last out" just like the Marines. They are still doing work after Katrina, still in those areas and will be Houston until everyone is back on their feet. 

You don't need that new shirt. You don't need that cup of coffee. Put it towards helping your fellow humans. WE MUST ANSWER this call and help those in need. Let's be the country of people we know we can be together. 

August 29, 2017

Add It To The List

Quick post today, friends. I hadn't planned to post because Le Husband has been home since Friday and I wanted to enjoy the evenings with him and get stuff done around the house. Then, this morning I saw quite a few of these ADD IT TO THE LIST posts and thought, yup, I'm in it to win it.

Sleep has been something I've complained about since March and I'm slowly trying to find my sleeping rhythm. The past two months have been tough because I wasn't staying asleep for more than an hour at a time. I made the room colder, started going to bed later and FINALLY listened to Kathy and ordered some Natural Calm. I take 1.5 teaspoons about an hour before bed and my mind slows and I'm usually able to get to sleep quickly. I still wake up once a night, but that's way better than six to seven times. I bought the pink bottle [of course] and didn't realize it had stevia in it, so I"ll be guying the other bottle once this is done. Highly recommend if you need to ease your mind or get more sleep!

 Tarte Shape Tape: Y'all were NOT kidding, this product is pretty freaking fantastic. Thank you to everyone who suggested it last week. I went out and bought it on Friday and feel so much better about my eyes this week. Honest moment, I dabbed on WAY too much Monday morning and so randomly did some highlight work on my face to blend it in, oooops! A little goes a long way so I'm pretty happy with the coverage and the price. Thanks, friends!

While at Ulta I purchased a few other delights and wouldn't you know, this amazing palette was on SALE! YES, URBAN DECAY was half off. I'm not the best at the smoky eye, but for the price am willing to play around a little bit. I checked on sephora and it was also on sale there online, go snag one, friends.

Another recommendation, one from Kathy and one from my husband a year or so ago. Le husband started taking collagen for gut health and I tried it a few times but meh, didn't really stick with it. However, in the past few months I've seen a ton of other companies coming out with collagen supplements so I started putting it in my coffee a few times a week. After my whiny post last week, Kathy reminded me HOW GOOD this is for skin and as of last week have made sure my morning cup of coffee has at least a teaspoon. If you start this regimen, START WITH SMALL DOSAGES, or expect to be in the bathroom more than normal. I've already noticed a different in my face, woohoo!
Not too many products, but these are big keepers in my opinion. What should I add to my list?

August 25, 2017

Weekly Wins

>>> You wonderful people and your response to my post on Weds. Thank you for being such kind friends and beautiful humans. I appreciate all the tips and sweet sweet words.

>>> My husband came home a night early, woohoo! #missedthatguy

>>> I booked a massage for today and I'm thrilled to be taking some time for me. It's going to hurt, but that's okay. I can't remember the last time I had a relaxing massage, everyone I've had recently is about releasing tension in the muscles and not feeling so tight. Bring on the noodles feeling ASAP!

>>> This video. Hilariously sweet and funny. Gotta love a dad doing a makeup video.

>>> LES MILLS LIVE is this weekend in Philly and while I'm not there I'm so excited for all my friends attending. I knew back when tickets went on sale it wasn't in the budget and I didn't have the time off so I'm not too upset about being 'left behind'. Plus, it's going to be thousands of people in one location and that is so not my jam. It is also TAP SUMMIT and I know four of the new rookies and I'm so proud of their efforts. One day I hope to be there learning too, but for now I'm thrilled for those I know.

>>> MY VACATION TIME FOR THANKSGIVING WAS APPROVED! I am thrilled. Ecstatic. A weight has been lifted off my shoulders now I know I can visit family for the Thanksgiving week. God is good and I'm grateful, so so so grateful.

>>> My new devotional arrived and I am love, love, loving it. If you are in the market, check out SAVOR by Shauna Niequist, so remarkably wonderful. And soothing. And just a big blanket of love. If a book could hug you, this one would.

Wishing you a wonderful weekend, sweet darling friends of mine. Lots of love your way!

August 23, 2017

I Don't Know About You, But I Feel 102

Okay, that's a bit dramatic, Pinky. But friends, I'm feeling hella hella hella old right now. Something has been festering in my brain and I can't shake it. All of a sudden all I can see in the mirror is old.

I'm 34. THIRTY FREAKING FOUR. Next year I will be five years from the big 4-0. I am of the mindset every year is a blessing and every birthday should be celebrated because we all know life is fleeting. Life is temporary no matter what anyone tells you. We are not permanent. So I try to live thankful and grateful and happy.

Key word is try. Every now and then something happens and something festers. Usually I can find the culprit. Usually it is very easy to drill down to find the cause for the effect. But right now, I can't see it. I can't find it. I honestly don't understand it. All I know is I feel old and haggard and so past my prime.

All I see in the mirror now is gray hair I have to die every six weeks. Lines on my forehead that NEVER and I mean NEVER go away. Wrinkle lines around my eye and dark puffy bags underneath. Dull, sun spotted skin which has now decided to break out constantly. Add all of that onto the chicken pox scares on my forehead that seem even more pronounced. Let's not even talk about the more yellow than white teeth because of coffee, tea and wine.

My body seems to be tired more often than not, even with breaks from teaching. Even with BCAAs. Even with extra magnesium. Sleep, what is sleep? Or what is good sleep? I used to think I'd do okay with minimal sleep, but it seems to be part of the reason my body is so blah at the moment.

Most people guess my age to be 10 years younger than the truth. I still get asked if I'm in college, but by fewer and fewer people it seems. Apparently my age is finally starting to show. I've started to consider botox for my face which is something I'd NEVER thought of as an option. NO judgement with others, I just always expected to grow older just the way I am and be fine.

Right now though, fine is the last thing I feel. This age drama is the pits. The worst. And yes, I do know I'm being a bit dramatic, but that's where my head is right now. This is my head space the past ten days. This feeling of being old and drab. Maybe this is the food I'm eating. Maybe this is the solar eclipse. Maybe this is a lost feeling of self. Maybe this is an unsettling moment for another reason entirely. I don't know. All I know is I want to live my truth and be happy. Which might mean a few facials in the future. And maybe a massage. Who knows.

For now, send me all your tips on getting younger looking skin and how I can minimize the bags under my eyes. Oh, and allllllll the makeup tips for mmmmkay?

August 17, 2017

Random Thursday Musings

Last week I posted a ton, this week, oops. Lots of random musings today. Key word, RANDOM!

|| Facebook reminded me about my BODYPUMP filming anniversary this week. Yes, friends, two years ago I started this fitness instructor journey and wow what a whirlwind of a two years. I was such a scared baby filming WITH MY FAMILY. So nervous, so unsure and still not certain this was something I would be good at or would enjoy. Flash forward four more LES MILLS and one BARRE certification later. I'm beyond grateful for my family who helped me take this step and so thankful I said YES even though I was scared. Reach for your dreams, friends. You can do it!

|| Our Thanksgiving plans are set and I'm slowly freaking out about asking my boss for the time off. There is part of me, this scared to ask questions part, who worries upon worries upon worries about asking. Then there is this other part of me, this indignant part, who gets pissed off because I feel I have to worry about asking for vacation. I don't want to rock the boat, but, it's family. And family comes first, always. I need to decide whether to ask him in person now or send an email request, basically telling him I'm taking off. Honestly, this sounds horrible, but right now if he says no I think I'll look for another job by October. Dramatic much, right? All I know is I'm going and that's flat.

|| Friends, lend me your eyes and thoughts. I'm in need of a new address stamp and with Expressionery running a small sale I figured this was the time to jump. There are so many choices I barely managed to narrow them down to three and now I ask for your help. Which do you like best? My only issue with #1 is would it seem weird if I sent a letter but had the return address be myself and Le Husband? I love the heart in #2, but wonder if it's a bit much. #3 is unique but is it me?

|| Our country makes me so sad right now. My heart hurts. My head hurts. My eyes hurt from crying. I don't understand this hate. I don't understand how people can be so judgmental of others due to skin color. I don't understand how people can generalize so hugely. White. Black. Muslim. Christian. Democrat. Republican. Independent. We are all human and we must take care of each other. We must we must we must we must LOVE!

|| Oh my land have I been tired, mornings make me look like this lady duck. I'll attribute 25% to a bad diet, not relaxing before bed and going to bed later than I should, but the rest is all due to not sleeping through the night. Sadly I've gone back on sleeping pills this week because I just could not take the lack of sleep anymore. Granted normal sleep for me is waking up every 4 hours, which is still quite broken, but this every 2 hours is for the birds. I have some Natural Clam arriving next week and fingers crossed it will be the natural way to fix this issue. I need my body to recover with rest.

|| Speaking of taking care of myself, I started talking to someone. FINALLY! Now, this is a bit different than what I originally expected, but I can meet via FaceTime which helps with scheduling. I'm seeing someone and learning about the process of FOCUSING. Very interesting, very different but very helpful. Tuesday we had a session and things veered off quite dramatically, yet I was able to feel the emotions without letting them engulf me. Big first step, y'all. BIG! 

|| Due to lack of sleep and being tired, my skin has been quite blah. So I went to the closet Walmart and bought  few different masks to try and combat the issues. I drink a ton of water and take vitamins plus a hair/skin/nails supplement daily, which makes me think this is something to treat on the outside. Anyone have a favorite [not expensive] hydration/pore shrinking mask the recommend? Thanks and thanks!

August 11, 2017

Weekly Wins

|| I no longer have to teach a 6am SPRINT class on Thursdays. I don't mind early classes [that much] but going to bed early, getting up early and getting to class where only 1 or 0 people attended was getting quite old. I emailed the manager and we both decided it wasn't worth the time, yahoo! Only one class every now and then at 6am now, so excited for more sleep.

|| BODYPUMP this week was awesome. Well, my 7pm class I knocked out the park. I had more fun teaching, was funnier and smilier than normal and it just felt natural. Random shift, yet one I'll take gladly.

|| My ego received quite a bump when I was asked to take over a BODYCOMAT class at my home gym. Granted, other wonderful candidates already had a class and couldn't take over, but to be asked was still quite an honor. I'll be able to use my AIM1 feedback finally, while also getting back in COMBAT shape.

|| There was one night this week I slept five hours in a row, it was glorious.

|| Work/study balance is slowly coming about. I'm getting back into my textbook and taking careful notes this time around. Some of it I remember and some of it feels foreign again. I've started though, which is good.

|| The training I mentioned a few weeks back is HAPPENING tomorrow, yay! My BODYATTACK bestie is joining in the fun so we are just going to make it a day trip. Gonna be a long, but fulfilling day. I'm looking forward to learning, shifting and soaking up everything Thanks for the support, friends.

|| Finally purchased more lavender and two books on Amazon. Cannot wait to receive them.

What are your weekly wins? Wishing you a fabulous weekend, my loves < 3!

August 8, 2017

Show Us Your Books

FINALLY. Made it here for book recaps. I've read more than the four books below, but finally making  a post meant quick like bunny writing and I only had time for four. You'll notice a theme, intrigue. WWI intrigue, military sniper intrigue, con artist and saving the nation intrigue and of course, the military investigator intrigue. All books were 5 out of 5 stars because I could not put them down. Does this mean you'll agree? Probably not, but that's the fun in recommendations, right?

Fun fact: I've always wanted to be a sniper. Not the most logical job or relatable job but I grew up military and snipers always held a fascination. Cleary I don't have the stones or the patience, but I love reading true life stories or novels about snipers. This book is the sixth in the series that inspired the movie and television show, "Shooter". Bob Swagger is an old man, but returns to help clear the name of a fellow sniper, because he's the good guy. Great writing by Hunter, lots of twists, lots of intrigue and lots of military talk. If that and gun descriptions aren't your thing, this isn't the book for you. But, this book is really, really, really good.

Good ol Bess Crawford is back. Sadly, this is the last in the series until October, boo. You'll remember my affinity for this WW1 nurse/detective. The war is nearing an end, but young Bess is continuing to answer the call until the very last moment. My imagination brings up moments from Downton when Bess describes the war and the hospitals. I am also fascinated by all the rules back then, what was proper, what caused gossip and how Bess had to finagle ways to see people without it being a stain on her reputation. I will be sad when this series is over and might actually purchase hard copies of this series because truly enjoy it so. If you are interested, I would suggest starting at the beginning, you'll be lost in the characters starting so close to the end.

Baldacci was the first crime/murder/intrigue authors I read. I discovered him in college and it was my first taste of murder, deceit and descriptive evil people. His level of gore is about all I can take and I found myself trying to read every book of his I could get my hands on at the library. This is one of the last series of his I've started and I was immediately drawn to the military aspect of the main character John. Baldacci writes quick chapters, full of the unexpected and oh my gosh chapter ends. Pages fly as you keep looking for the next big thing. I realized halfway through the book I've read others in the series out of order, and this book solved a few 'huh' moments. I'm mad about one part, but don't authors piss us off on purpose? Great quick read.

The Camel Club is one of my favorites by Baldacci. Big fan of groups of misfits right wrongs and taking down the bad guys. Another book out of order in the series when I read it, glad to finally have all the background on Miss Annabelle [love her name by the way]. A big time DC player and a not so big time DC player are murdered and it's up to the Camel Club to put it all together to bring the bad guys to justice, all while staying out of harms way. Fun peeks into the rare book collector's life and the con artist's too. I really enjoyed it and think it would be a great last part of vacation book.

There you have it, some of the books I've read. Nothing groundbreaking and all very similar but I tend to read the same kind of books all together when I just need SOMETHING to read before bed. The next batch might be all romancey or silly. I have quite a few deep reads on my list but with my studying and busy days I want something light before bedtime. 

What's the ONE book I need to add to my list?

August 7, 2017

When Your Body Says Nope {& Still Productivity}

Before we get to the post, can we all give an AMEN for a weekend update on a Monday? I mean, last week I talked about not doing so hot with recaps and then BOOM, one this week. How bout them apples? Or peaches, mmmmmm, peaches. Moving on now.

I had very little plans for this weekend, which in itself is something incredible. Our weekends have bee nonstop recently and Le Husband has been traveling a ton for work. A clean slate of a weekend meant SLEEP - ANOTHER AMEN PLEASE - and getting things done around the house. Friday afternoon I came home from work and just plopped down on the couch because I finally could. Le Husband came home and we immediately got to work on our chicken and waffles dinner. It was SOOOO delicious and just a perfect chill meal to end the week. 

Bedtime was early for me because I was exhausted. Saturday morning we didn't move until 10am because our bodies were like 'nope, sleep' so we listened. A cup of coffee or two later and it was full steam ahead with the list of things we wanted to accomplish. Le Husband wanted to build a new bathroom vanity, I wanted to vacuum, clean the house, reorganize the linen closet, do laundry, clean up the master bedroom and study. Definitely an ambitious list but if something didn't happen nbd. Well guess what, we started projects then took a break for lunch and boom, passed out on the couch. 

Yup, our bodies gave us the big old NOPE, you're doing nothing today and we just rolled with it. I'm talking watching the NCIS marathon, taking a nap off an on, ordering pizza in which was followed by soft serve ice cream unproductive day. Y'all, it was glorious upon glorious. Sure I felt lazy as a sloth but it was something we N E E D E D to recharge and I'm so glad we didn't fight it just to 'be productive'. 

Sunday morning we slept in again [weird after so much rest the day before] then got after it all, checking things off the list one at a time. We didn't get to everything but a lot was taken care of and as I write this I feel soooooo good about the split of days. Le Husband and I needed this so badly. For our bodies. For our sanity. For ourselves. For US together. With all his traveling and all my teaching we've started to become ships passing in the evenings or just sending time together with other people too. We haven't had time to just be us, husband and wife, best friend to best friend with no deadline to meet. Just together with nothing to do but watch the wind blow by... and eat of course. 

No pictures, nothing exciting for Instagram and nothing really blogworthy. Except, it was one of the best weekends I've had in a really, really, really long time. Wishing you a fabulous week :)

August 3, 2017

What Are My Gifts?


Life has me adrift as of late. Shocking, right? Now hear me out, I'm past the point of feeling on an edge of a scary precipice. Of fearing the future and desperately pleading for something steady. I have something steady, which eases my fears, yet there is still a longing for a truer sense of belonging.

My job gives me no fulfillment and honestly is a waste of a day. Work is done before lunch, quite often earlier, which leaves hours of nothing. I've found ways to pass the time and am now refocusing my studying efforts for my PT exam, but the unexpected something always looms so I usually do not get fully invested in studying or learning new choreography for classes.

All the down time leads my mind to wonder, ponder and criticize my situation. Try as I might I can't shake the feeling, so I'm taking steps to work with someone on focusing. Small step, but a step none the less.  Hopefully it will help this sense of yoyo emotions.

One of the things giving me the biggest feeling of failure is remember what I've always been told as a child. Use your gifts. Use what you've been given to help the work. Make it a better place with who you are and your specialities.

But......what are my gifts? What do I do well? What can I do to make the world better? How do I parlay what I'm good at into a job? How do I find my calling or those specialties? Is what I'm good at anything useful? Are they worthwhile or things I just can do that get me through a day?

Please understand, this is not meant as a woe is me post. I've had plenty of those in the past and y'all have responded with such kindness. This is more of a something to speak aloud and ponder. Also understand, I know I do certain things well, other things okay and some ish for lack of a better term. I want to figure out how the good can become great and the great become a life.

I've made a list of what I think my positive attirtubes and gifts are and now am at the point of trying to parlay that into something good for life. For me and my family. For a job and for happiness. Please tell me I'm not the only one out there who's felt this way? Those who have, what did you do about it? Did you make a break and jump? Did you realize you were where you needed to be? What was your plan of action? Please share, I desperately need to know :)!

August 2, 2017


snacking {on}: peaches. oh my word I love me some in season peaches. and saltines. not sure where or why they became so delicious, I just can't stop snacking on them.

anticipating: another advanced training this month. I want to rock it out and check the box so I can move on to something awesome. fingers crossed I do well and fully immerse in the feedback.

borrowing: hmmm, nothing really. been slacking on my kindle time recently.

admiring: all the people who have the cute outfits and their life together. #notme

purchasing: hopefully something during the P&M summer clearance.

reading: Inferno by Dan Brown. GOOOOOOD!

watching: reruns of my favorite shows. because, bored at work.

hoping: my future will start to unfold the way I plan.

loving: the fact I have nothing planned this weekend. cheers to sleep.