Randomly Put Together Thoughts

// My weekend was spent playing in a kickball tournament for 13+ hours. It was long. It was hot. It was random rules and often annoying but in the end we won so it was awesome. People think we are crazy, they aren't wrong, but this sport has created many fun memories. Driving home champs after a long day in the sun made it all worth it.

// Just when I feel on the cusp of the abyss, friends show up in the most surprising way. Two of my dear fitness friends took time out of their day to come eat a quick janky Subway lunch with me yesterday. Over the past year we've become a trio of sorts and due to busy summer schedules hadn't had a chance to all get together. So, they put together lunch and we enjoyed 25 minutes together catching up and laughing too much. That is friendship. That makes me grateful.

// Distraction has been the name of the game recently. I've always been a distracted person, but recently things have journeyed to a whole new level. Lists will get written. Goals set. And then, nothing. Because I want to look at my phone. Or read stupid online things. Watching shows online at work has stolen moments of productivity for my own personal goals. I just can't stop this cycle, does anyone have any ideas.

// Ask me if I've opened my NASM textbook to start studying again. NOPE! I thought my failure the first time would light a fire under my fanny, but again, NOPE! I don't want to study. It reminds me of HOW STUPID I felt after failing. Learning this stuff is HARD, but I want so badly to pass. I need to grow up and just do it.

// There is a training in Nashville next month I desperately want to attend. Finally an advanced training for BODYATTACK, finally. But...but...I don't want to inmeped on my Nashville friends AGAIN. I've stayed with them three times this year already, without truly hanging out with them, and I just feel horrid asking to stay the night again. Many peoples saying I'm being silly, but my sense of 'using them' just won't go away. I'm dabbling in the idea of just making it a day journey, leaving at 5am and then driving home once it's over, since the training is just a day. I NEED this training to move on to the NEXT step with Les Mills. I know it in my heart missing this will make me miss opportunities in the future.

// Hard to believe this time last year I started working for Gold's. My, what a different time and feeling. July 2016 was still a happy time for me, I was enjoying the summer on the lake while trying to find permanent job. Life was still hopeful, I was still naive. Things didn't begin to unravel until September. July was happy and I miss those carefree days of nothing.

// Family will be in town this weekend and I can't wait. Our lil nephews will be here and my mom is coming down for an unexpected funeral. Family is my home. I crave it so I will be basking in the glow.