March 19, 2010

FaithFULL Fridays

Happy Friday to all! (not sure anyone is out there, but still)
Here is the faith verse for today:
"Therefore being justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ: By whom also we have access by faith into this grace wherein we stand, and rejoice in hope of the glory of God." Romans 5:1-2
As we draw closer to the end of Lent and to the Hallelujahs of Palm Sunday followed by the sadness and despair of Good Friday, we are reminded of our FAITH as we wait for that GLORIOUS SUNDAY where Christ rose from the dead.
Are you ready?
Are you prepared?
Are you hungry for that wonderful day?
I know I am.
I also know I can use a bit more faith in my life.
GOD is GOOD and will walk me through whatever comes my way.
and He will do the same for you.
Blessings on this Friday to you!

March 18, 2010

Green with Envy...not just a nail color

For St. Paddy's day yesterday I made sure to I was all greened out.

Green sweater shirt...check
Green earrings...check
Green with Envy Nail polish...check

Now, before you freak out, I have read through the fashion blogs that pale green nail polish is one of the "in" colors for the spring season. I searched the CVS store forever to find a pale shade I liked. But alas, once on the effect is a bit more NEON than expected. However, I am all for taking a few fashion risks and am rocking the green with class and a sass.

Anyway, the name of the green nail polish "Green with Envy" got me thinking....
and thinking...
and thinking....
about the word Envy and what and who do I Envy?

I envy those who's lives seem put together
the happy little families of women my age
the newly engaged and married couples
the old couples who have been together for 50 years
little 3 and 4 year olds who have their whole lives ahead of them
people who have worked their tail off to make their dreams come true
the strong Christian couples at my church and in the world who know God has blessed their union with His Love and who always have that Best Friend to turn to
rich people who don't have a care in the world about money
missionaries who know their riches aren't being stored up here on earth
people who can make decision and aren't wishy-washy about what they have chosen

I envy those who don't have anything to envy about anyone because they are so happy!

Is the grass always greener? If I had any say about my life I would be married with one child and another possibly on the way right now. And yet here I am, a 20 something girl living with a roommate and dating someone who probably isn't going to end up being the one. (WOW, I can't believe I just typed that sentence. But, that is for another day). It seems like I am drifting
drifting through life and I'm ready to have an anchor.

And then I realize I do. My anchor is also my rock. And also my Savior.
So I ask for forgiveness Lord for coveting and envying others.
I am so blessed in my life and just get caught up in wanting more.

Friends and followers please pray for me. I want to be able to feel fulfilled in my life and not envy others around me. I know that God is good and there is a plan for me. It's just hard waiting to see it all come together.

March 12, 2010

*FaithFULL Fridays*

Since we are in the season of Lent, I thought it would be fun do a little play on words!

Here is a faith tidbit for the day!

"For therein is the righteousness of God revealed from faith to faith:
as it is written, The just shall live by faith."

Romans 1:17

Have a blessed and faithFILLED day!


March 10, 2010

It's blowing in the wind

Have you ever felt change was coming? But then are completely baffled when it actually happens? Has that ever happened to you? Cause it just happened to me.

Now, I know we all just met (not that anyone is reading this now, but I'm dreaming of actually having people read what I write.) but something in my personal life just took a dramatic turn.

Dramatics's cousin, Drama, and I don't get along very well, but I digress.

I have been dating my boyfriend, whom we will call GT, for the past 3+ months. Our 'how we met' story is a random but sweet one, which I might get into later. Anyway, the past few months have been wonderful, amazing and a real surprise. I am usually very guarded with guys (again a post for another day) but GT and I just clicked and became inseparable. This again, is unusual to my normal dating style because I like my alone time and I...okay P!nx, back to the subject.

Since November, I've learned what 'falling in love' really means and that all guys don't suck at life. I've learned to let someone love me and to open myself up to them. I've learned that being that mushy couple is cute and fun. I've learned love is fun. I've learned that wanting to be with someone every day, when reciprocated isn't bad. I've learned that I can survive on less sleep, but only choose to when I'm with him. I've learned that hanging out with the ring leader of friends makes me proud. I've learned that not every guy likes to play the '5 cheating with out consequences game'. I've learned I might change my views for a guy..SAY WHAT?!?!?!

I've also learned that not fighting in 3 months will lead to a very unpleasant surprise one night when you expect to argue over one subject and then are blindsided by an insanely different discussion. ***NOTE TO SELF: fighting isn't bad if you are trying to discuss problems. If you don't bring something up it doesn't just go away.*** I've learned that ACTIONS speak louder than words. I've learned how much I have grown to depend on someone. I've learned that not talking about the important things early because we don't want to worry about it, brings things to a halt real fast in the late stages. I've learned that the thought of losing GT has made me question some of my beliefs....and not for the better. I've learned that the day after a really deep argument is extremely hard because you still aren't 100% sure where everythings stands, and you don't want to rock the boat again.

So I sit here, as that girl, waiting for a response to an email.
That took forever to write.
That was 6 lines.
And didn't really say anything important.
But each ticking minute, speaks to other words unsaid.
And want to cry, because the wonderful love magic.
seems to be gone, in one instant.

So I also pray. For God's love,
His mercy,
His guidance,
and His strength.

And even as I do, I want to cry alitle more,
because as I pray,
I know GT isn't,
because he doesn't see Faith the way I do.
So while we are going to try,
because we aren't ready to let go.

I see the
of the clock.

And realize, maybe my prayers have been answered....just not the way I expected.


March 9, 2010

P!nk is the word

Well, here it is. My first foray into blogging. I'm not quite sure what this will amount to or even if I will keep it up. But, I've been a follower and yes, a lurker (that sounds so creepy now that I type it), so now I figure it's time to pony up and try out the blogger side of the world.

For my piece of mind I'm choosing to keep this anonymous, because this might become my place to vent. And we can't have people know what I really think about them right? right?!?!

That's all I have to say for now. We'll see how often I'm back.

Until then....

Let them like P!NK