I know, I know! I am a bad bad P!nky!
I have been soooooooo bad about upDATing and I feel badly about it. When I was just a lurker I never understood how people could go so long without updating. Didn't they know I wanted to know how they were doing?!?!?
Well, now that I am on the flip side I have to apologize to both people who blog (now I know what you mean) and those who are reading here (allll __ of you heeehee).
There are a bunch of posts percolating in my 'edit posts' folder, but I haven't had time to get everything all together to have them all make sense. I hope to soon because I think some of them could be really good, but not timely. Hopefully I will get the chance to get everything I want down in a cohesive blog in the near future.
Life has gotten busy busy again for me. Work is picking up and now involves alot of tedious blahness which keeps me from wanting to type on the comp if I don't have to. I have been busy with extra curricular activities but have been trying to tone down my nonsense and recently have been successful. I usually go through waves on nonsense randomly, but this time I can definitely link the past 2 months of craziness to the hurt and debacle that was GT and P!nky. I have still not gotten my center back but am now digging my way back up.
I have also started dating someone new, a guy from one of my teams who we will call 'C'. (Trying to keep this blog anonymous is really getting tricky when I try to name people). We have played on the same team for a season now, but didn't really get to talking/hanging out till the middle of last month.....during my crazy stage. YES, this all started because of liquid courage on me part.....AGAIN! Which I guess isn't a bad thing, because nothing would have started had I not been the one to come up to C, since he is a quiet kind of guy. Not shy per say, but just quiet and all internalish. But, we have good conversations and I enjoy his company. We are not yet 'official' but we determined if anyone on our team asks we are 'dating'. Which, I am okay with, because I don't want to have things get serious too fast like they did with GT.
Obviously I don't want the same thing to happen with C that happened with GT, so I'm going to have to bring up the religious question soon. He knows I go to church every Sunday, and has seen the different sides of my personality, but now I need to ask him what he believes and what is important to him. It's a little awkward for me though, because things are still in the very early stages and I don't want to make things more serious then they are. However when talking out loud to myself and others I determined I WILL NOT make the SAME MISTAKE I did with GT. I can't wait that long to bring something so important to the table. So, I can just make a new mistake and maybe bring it up too early or at the wrong time and just learn from that experience. I enjoy hanging out with B and who knows where things will end up, but I'm not going to have the same thing happen twice in a row.