July 27, 2017

Randomly Put Together Thoughts


// My weekend was spent playing in a kickball tournament for 13+ hours. It was long. It was hot. It was random rules and often annoying but in the end we won so it was awesome. People think we are crazy, they aren't wrong, but this sport has created many fun memories. Driving home champs after a long day in the sun made it all worth it.

// Just when I feel on the cusp of the abyss, friends show up in the most surprising way. Two of my dear fitness friends took time out of their day to come eat a quick janky Subway lunch with me yesterday. Over the past year we've become a trio of sorts and due to busy summer schedules hadn't had a chance to all get together. So, they put together lunch and we enjoyed 25 minutes together catching up and laughing too much. That is friendship. That makes me grateful.

// Distraction has been the name of the game recently. I've always been a distracted person, but recently things have journeyed to a whole new level. Lists will get written. Goals set. And then, nothing. Because I want to look at my phone. Or read stupid online things. Watching shows online at work has stolen moments of productivity for my own personal goals. I just can't stop this cycle, does anyone have any ideas.

// Ask me if I've opened my NASM textbook to start studying again. NOPE! I thought my failure the first time would light a fire under my fanny, but again, NOPE! I don't want to study. It reminds me of HOW STUPID I felt after failing. Learning this stuff is HARD, but I want so badly to pass. I need to grow up and just do it.

// There is a training in Nashville next month I desperately want to attend. Finally an advanced training for BODYATTACK, finally. But...but...I don't want to inmeped on my Nashville friends AGAIN. I've stayed with them three times this year already, without truly hanging out with them, and I just feel horrid asking to stay the night again. Many peoples saying I'm being silly, but my sense of 'using them' just won't go away. I'm dabbling in the idea of just making it a day journey, leaving at 5am and then driving home once it's over, since the training is just a day. I NEED this training to move on to the NEXT step with Les Mills. I know it in my heart missing this will make me miss opportunities in the future.

// Hard to believe this time last year I started working for Gold's. My, what a different time and feeling. July 2016 was still a happy time for me, I was enjoying the summer on the lake while trying to find permanent job. Life was still hopeful, I was still naive. Things didn't begin to unravel until September. July was happy and I miss those carefree days of nothing.

// Family will be in town this weekend and I can't wait. Our lil nephews will be here and my mom is coming down for an unexpected funeral. Family is my home. I crave it so I will be basking in the glow.

11 comments:

Melissa said...

Girlfriend! Just do it! Stay with your Nashville friends again - I'm sure they would LOVE to have you. As a friend whose doors are always open for those just "passing through" - it's never a burden - always a pleasure :) You've got this!

Kate at Green Fashionista said...

CONGRATS on winning the kickball tournament! And yay for family coming to town, enjoy every second gurlie <3
Green Fashionista

Kay R. said...

Congrats on the tournament and have the best time with family this weekend

Carly Blogs Here said...

Yay for a kickball win and lunch with friends! Sometimes little things like that can make such a big difference in your day/week. I think you should totally do the training in Nashville-- I bet your friends would be more than happy to host you again & realize how appreciative you are of having somewhere to stay that will help you reach your goals.

Jen said...

Way to go on the tournament and do Nashville!!!!! You need to!!! :)

Laura Marie Keenan said...

I seriously like be that you play competitive kickball!!! I want in on that!

Emily @ Martinis & Bikinis said...

Congrats on taking home the win last weekend! Much deserved and makes that drive home so much sweeter! Enjoy your family time this weekend! Emily @ Martinis & Bikinis

Erin LFF said...

I truly think it's awesome you guys play kickball like you do. Whatever you ENJOY, you should do it- who cares what anyone else thinks?! :) When we have a little more free time (and babysitters lol) Jared and I want to join a bowling league and I can't wait! Enjoy your time with family- yay for nephews!!

Brianne said...

Congrats on the win & yay for your family being in town!!

sara [at] journey of doing said...

I'm so glad that you've found some friends who can get you through the though days... and that you're enjoying kickball! Can you do something sweet for your Nashville friends to alleviate your feelings?! That might help... maybe?? My distraction level and motivation has been abysmal this summer too.

Kathy@MoreCoffeeLessTalky said...

Family time is so important; glad yours is coming to town (but sucks that it's due to a funeral) :( nevertheless, give them extra hugs!