*FaithFULL Fridays*

Happy FaithFULL Friday FRIENDS!!!!!!!!!

"Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted. "
Matthew 5:4

This may not be the verse expected on a Faithfull Friday, but I felt it was perfect this week. Sadly, one of my best friends lost her grandmother this week and so she and her family are in mourning. My heart just breaks for her, as I experienced my first 'losing of a grandmother' 2 years ago (I can't believe it's been that long).

So, it is with FAITH, hope and love that we BELIEVE God will take the hurt away day by day. Please pray for her and her family, I know they will appreciate it.

Have a blessed weekend, full of TREATS and no Tricks!

xoxo,

P!nky

Thirteen Thursdays

Wow, time for another Thirteen on Thursday. This week's theme is:

Thirteen "Things I love about Fall"

1) The crisp smell in the air in the early mornings walking outside

2) BOOTS! BOOTS! BOOTS! Knee High, Booties, Over-the-Knee, I lovelovelovelove them all!

3) Hot Chocolate

4)FOOTBALL!!!!!!! (although my team has highly disappointed me this year. It has been rough and we are only six weeks in. It's hard living in this town where my team is the arch rival and we aren't winning. But I still LOVE football Saturdays and Sundays)

5)Bringing out the warm sweaters

6)The beautiful fall foliage. Even though I enjoy spring and summer more than fall, I can't help but LOVE LOVE LOVE the beautiful trees and changing leaves. There is something about the warm yellow, red, orange and brown tones that just make me smile.

7)Pumpkin patches, corn maizes and fall festivals

8)Changing summer bedsheets/quilts for warm flannel sheets and cuddly comforters

9)Dying my hair a darker color. I haven't decided whether I like being (fake) blondish or darkish but I LOVE the first hair appointment of a new season. I'm rockin' a warm dark chocolate color with blonde highlights currently

10)Hoodies and baggy sweatpants. I LIVE in these items in the fall. (Although participating in WIWW might change that going forward). And now that I am dating C, I have begun confiscating a nice collection of sweatshirts and sweatpants. I mean come on, boys sweatpants are SO MUCH more comfortable than girls (and more forgiving on the figure too)

11)Although I am not a fan of pumpkin or apple anything I find myself enjoying the smells during the fall. I actually have an apple pie sented candle in my apartment now and personally think it smells really delish.

12)Getting back into my gym routine. Summer always takes my gym focus away (despite the fact it's the time TO BE in shape) with constant vacations, bbqs, happy hours etc. But I've gotten back into my gym schedule of at least 3 times a week and I am feeling great

13) Okay, please Please PLEASEEEEEE don't kill me for this last one, but I love the prepping of Christmas music at church choir practice. We had our first Christmas music practice last week and I was soooooo excited. I know many of you mommies are shaking your head at me and trying to jump through the screen, but I am already excited for Christmas :)

What are your 13 Favorite things about fall?

What I Wore Wednesday

Many of the blogs I’ve been readingSLASHstalking participate in this awesome occurrence called “What I wore Wednesdays” (WIWW). Started by the talented author of the “Pleated Poppy” as a way to be ‘held accountable’ for her fashion choices, it has become a really interesting tool for finding new fashion statements for me.

One day soon, I will be brave enough to actually join. However I am still, for the sake of privacy, trying to keep this blog anonymous. BUT, I am tagging up and joining with a mini-post this week. This is only for one day; however there are two different outfits.

TWO OUTFITS in one work day, you ask? What are you a fashionista? Are you that vain? Do you work in NYC as a model? Oh, you humble me with such questions, but no, nothing so glamorous.

Actually, my two outfits are the product of something OPPOSITE of glamorous.

Behold Outfit #1:

Skirt: Victoria’s Secret
Top: Ann Taylor Loft
Shoes: Nine West
Tape: Anderson Physical TherapyYep, you read and see correctly, TAPE! My ankles are taped circa college soccer 2004. This past summer I was having trouble with my calves and IT band because of overuse. After weeks of pain I finally went to the doctor who promptly told me “You need to SLOW DOWN and stop OVERUSING your body”! What?!?! I’m not 21 anymore, surely you jest Doc! Anyway, long story short I have been going to a Physical Therapist (WHO TOTALLY ROCKS MY SOCKS…or SHOES) and have finally been diagnosed with weak ankles. REALLY…weak ankles, how pathetic does that sound? But, in all fairness I have sprained both ankles more times than I can count playing soccer, especially in high school and college. These weak ankles have cause my calves to work double time and BOOM, super tight calves!
So, my treatment has become getting my ankles taped once a week before any athletic events, along with ankle exercises to strengthen my muscles. I have been doing this the past 3 weeks or so and have never had a problem. Cue yesterday. With the random NICE weather we have had here on the East coast, I was super excited to break my skirts back out and enjoy showing off my gams (hahah jk). Got ready in the morning, headed to PT in my shorts&Tshirt, packed my bag with said outfit to change into and BOOM!

---HELLOOOOOOOOOO taped ankles----

Despite the fact that my work is pretty casual there was NO WAY I was going to show up to work with tape on my ankles (My coworker K would have KILLED ME).

Behold Outfit #2:

Pants: Express
Top: Ann Taylor Loft
Shoes: Nine West

NO TAPE, YAYSKI!!! I will now be paying more attention to the weather and will make sure to have at least ONE cup of coffee before I pack my bag for PT.

So, there is my WIWW mini-first edition. Please don’t laugh too much!

"Being a happy couple is a healthy thing"

RIGHT?!?!?!?!?!?! I mean right?!?!?!?!

"He knows you"
"You know him"
"You have a good foundation"
"He knows how to commit, it's a good thing"

So WHY AM I WAITING FOR THE BOTTOM TO DROP OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I like Addison Montgomery on Private Practice. I was not a fan of her character on Grey's Anatomy though because I truly thought Meredith and Derek should be together, but I digress. On PP she has a spine, she stands up for what she believes in, except in a relationship. She is always getting the short end of the stick, many times by her own hand. However, so far in the current season her love life is going HER way. She has the guy, things are great in every way possible, AND SHE IS OVERANALYZING and WAITING and EXPECTING it to go south.

Does she sound like someone you know?!? Yeah I'm talk to you -->P!NKY<--!!!

The quotes above are from the PP last week and while I was watching it(atwork..shh) I found myself realizing, OMGOSH, I'm ADDISON! (minusthecrazyrelationshipsamazingdoctorpartplusmyChristianmoralspart). I am always trying to plan 5 steps ahead so I won't get hurt. And when things are good...almost perfect...I'm looking past it and waiting for the other shoe to drop. Don't get me wrong, I enjoy the fun quirky side of the relationship, but I haven't fully LOST myself in the feeling, in the meaning, in the relationship.

I have NEVER said I love you first...EVEREVEREVER! I do my best to not let myself get attached too quickly to the actual person. I do get attached to the idea of having SOMEONE (anyone) as THAT person who is always there for you though. But, I have always managed to keep it to a very generic feeling, like a friend. I mean, that's the worst part about breakups for me. Losing that FRIEND...that PERSON who is there and gets you and sees you in a certain way. But, I digress. (I do that ALOT)!

My sisters and friends always tell me "Relax, don't think so much. Let things happen." But I rarely can. I mean, I do just let things happen, I don't voice my concerns to the boyfriend or anything. I don't change around them. I am not the whiny girl constantly wanting to talk about feelings and such. Nope, I just shut it off in a nice little compartment in myself and just let it sit there....and sit there....just waiting for that 1 thing! That 1 tiny little thing that starts the beginning of the end.

THE END...that's all I've known with relationships. I've been broken up with and I've initiated the break up. I've had good, mutual break ups. I've been blindsided and hurt. I've been the one to blindside and hurt as well. As I am sure everyone has. But, I've never known the concept of forever. I thought I knew it with my first boyfriend in college, but looking back it was puppy love and innocent.

This post is going all over the place, so let me see if I can get myself back on track. Things are good with C and me. We hang out all the time (which is a BIG deal for me). We compliment each other in a way I never knew was possible in my life. We tease each other but it's always in good fun. There is a real equalness in power within the relationship, I really don't feel there is a tilt either way. I miss him throughout the day at work, but don't feel the need to be in constant contact with him and vice versa. He supports me and I support him. He gets the contradiction of my Christian faith and trying to fit in with the secular world (post for another day of course). He calls me honey or baby which I love. He makes breakfast in the morning. He lets me create my own space at his place. He stays up late waiting for my athletic games to be over. He gets along with my family. HE'S ALMOST PERFECT!

AND I AM FREAKING OUT!

Because I feel I can't compete with him. I don't know how he feels, he doesn't talk about it. But seriously, how many guys do? And, we're at just over 3 months. And that's when things always happen with me. SOMETHING always comes along around now....and I'm WAITING to see what it is. However, I don't know how to address this to C. 'Hey honey, just an FYI, we're gonna have something bad happen in our relationship soon.' Yeah, I bet he'd LOVE THAT! So, of course I won't say anything. My drama is stored in my compartment as usual and I will just sit back and wait.

and wait.
and wait.

For this wonderful thing to combust...because, hey, that's what I do.

Thirteen Thursdays

ANOTHER LIST?!?!?! Yeah, I haven't been in the mood to write posts that require capitalization and actually putting words in a correct order. So here is my list of 13 for Thursday!

Today's theme is 'THANKFUL'!

1)I am thankful I have a job. It is not what I want to do for the rest of my life, but I can live comfortably and have made some great friendships in the past 4 years.

2)My family is attending the wedding of our dear associate pastor this weekend. It will be a day trip (about a 4 hour drive each way), but I am so looking forward to it. She has since moved on to another church but was such a valuable friendship while she helped lead our congregation. We forged a blessed friendship which I am oh so thankful for.

3)I get to see my baby sister who is away at law school. I don't like having her far away and am glad I get an opportunity to see her.

4)My Physical Therapist/Trainer who has reached a break through in diagnosing my leg injury. I have been seeing her for a month or so and she is so awesome. Not 100% sure if this diagnosis is correct, but it has been helping my sports participation. (details for another post)

5)I am thankful for all of the wonderfully creative people online who have such a talent. I finally ordered something from and Esty shop at PurpleLemonDesigns and am so excited! If you get the chance visit her website, it is amazing! (http://www.etsy.com/shop/purplelemondesigns)

6)My Keuring coffee maker in the mornings. Can't.function.without.it

7) 20% off coupon at BedBathandBeyond to make buying special coffee cheaper

8)My boss is taking tomorrow off....Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

9)Seeing teammates for the first time this season. I am on 32940830 different sports teams and my Thursday night team has been neglected. But I am able to make the game tonight and can't wait to see a bunch of my friends

10) In 5ish months my roommate will be moving out of the country. We have had a really rough patch the last few weeks and even if she wasn't moving I would be moving to a different place because it has gotten pretty bad.

11)My friends who are supporting me and letting me come chill at their places when I don't want to just sit at my apartment. I am super blessed.

12)My boyfriend, C. He randomly appeared in my life and while I was the instigator (I approached him, in a rare brave moment) he and I are on equal playing fields now. He isn't the most talkative guy and doesn't tell me how much I mean to him very often. But, he now shows me in small gestures that have really started to melt my heart

13)That TOMORROW IS FRIDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

********SIDENOTE: This was obviously suppose to be posted yesterday but I got distracted!********

Ten for Tuesday

This probably won't become a habit, but for lack of post inspiration I thought "YAY, a get to know me list" :)

1)I hate FEET! They totally gross me out. My feet and especially the feet of other people. Don't touch mine and don't even think about asking me to touch yours. I didn't have my first pedicure until I was a senior in college because I HATE people touching my feet.

2) I love sweets and carbs. This makes it hard to keep my trim shape. I have gotten better at limiting my sweets, but gosh darn those carbs. One of the main reasons I haven't pursued a job in personal training, no control over the last 5% of my diet.

3)I love dogs.

4)I can't stand cats (semi allergic).

5)Speaking of animals, my bark is much worse than my bite. I am very sarcastic and talk a very very big game. I am constantly quoting inappropriate rap songs because of their "I am the best (or another four letter word)" mantra. If you were to meet me at a bar I would be the first person to say I would take on anyone messing with my friends or being obnoxious.

6) But at the heart, I LOATHEHATECANTSTAND confrontation. My stomach hurts and my whole body reacts for hours before or after a confrontation. If I'm mad a significant other or friend I worry for days about the best way to deal with the conflict. I have gotten better at speaking my mind at the time, but because of my college major I really try to evaluate the situation before freaking out (unless you are my family, all bets are off them).

7)I thought that by this point in my life I would already be married and possibly starting a family. But, I'm still the single girl (well I have a boyfriend, C, but only of 3 months), but I'm not the wifey to the hubby which is what I thought I would have by now.

8)I often find myself as a contradiction of life. I am super into sports and very tomboyish. However, I go through periods where I love to always match, I always have my hair and makeup done and I don't look like I play any type of sport. I also am very Christian, love Jesus and am very conservative in most of my beliefs. Yet, if you saw me at a bar you wouldn't have the slightest clue I go to church on Sunday. This is something I need/want to work on.

9)I'm starting to really fall in love with C. And it's the most comforting SLASH scary feeling I've ever had in a relationship. This is so different and I'm not sure if that's good or bad.

10)As shallow as it sounds (and as bad as it sounds after #9) I want to randomly run into some movie star actor and have him fall in love with me so we can live happily ever after.

What's your 10?!?!?!?

FaithFULL Fridays

"So do not fear, for I am with you.
Do not be dismayed for I am your God
I will strengthen you and help you;
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand"

Isaiah 41:10

!!!TRUE LOVE!!!!

Wondering Wednesdays

In an effort try and keep things interesting here in P!nk town I am looking for ways to spice up posts. Alot of the blogs I am viewing..ahem stalking...participate in 'What I wore Wednesdays' but I am not quite comfortable with that yet (although with my recent trip, it would be a pretty interesting post). So I created my own Wednesday themed post titled 'Wondering Wednesdays'.

~I wonder how long it will take before I am brave enough to actually leave a comment on any of the blogs I have been lurking on the past year

~I wonder if any of the girls who blog on said sites would even be remotely interested in my boring, single girl life

~I wonder how long this bout of blogging will last

~I wonder what life has in store for me

~I wonder how I am going to get through these next 5 months with the roommate situation I have going on now

~I wonder if another argument is in my future or if I will be able to just deal with things how they are

~I wonder what the future for C and I will be

~I wonder if my dream of having a husband and a little one will ever come true

~I wonder how long it will be before I take the plunge and try and get my own place

~I wonder what C meant when he told me I shouldn't look for my OWN place yet

~I wonder if he remembers me saying (at least 3 times) I won't live with someone until I am married

~I wonder if this relationship will get past the dreaded 6 months demise

~I wonder how long it will take for me to get back in pre-injury shape

~I wonder if I will be able to get back into my healthy eating routine before the holidays

~I wonder where on EARTH did the summer go

~I wonder if I will have someone to spend the holidays with (C?)

~I wonder how C's new job will affect our relationship (more $$ but more time on the road)

~I wonder if I will ever get an answer to any of these wonderings

-----What do YOU WONDER about???-----

Like the Terminator

'I'MMMMMMMMMMMMM BACK!!!!!!!!!!!'

Hello there friends, sorry I've been so MIA! There have been many times I've wanted to come back to the blogging world but never got around to it. However, after some new blog stalking I have decided to try and jump back on the wagon.

Below please find my list of excuse for the lack of blogging:

1) I've been busy
2) Work is crazy now = less time for blogging
3) I got distracted by my new interest C
4) Happy to tell you C and I are doing well, been together for 3ish months
5) I realize this isn't a reason for being MIA but figured it was newsworthy
6) I have been super lazy about my home Internet and have gotten too frustrated when trying to blog at home
7) TV season is here so have been catching up on my shows at work instead of blogging (shhhhhhhhhhh don't tell my boss)
8) My life hasn't been too interesting so I haven't had much to report
9) Okay that's a semi-lie
10) I don't like my blog layout and have been lazy about fixing it

But, I'm back now kids so I hope you are ready to 'grab your gear' (heartNCIS) and jump back along for the ride.

xoxo,
P!nky