When Did I Become This Blogger?

You know what I'm talking about right? The blogger who used to be consistent with content, comment responses {SORRY FRIENDS!} and who would show up day in and day out on your blogs then all of a sudden disappears off of the face of the Internet. I've been blogging six years so I have seen many a favorite blog go dark.

Sometimes there was an annocnment but most of the time people just stopped posting and slowly I stopped returning to read. Every time I saw it happen I recall thinking 'Who does that? Who just walks away from a blog without saying anything? And how in the world does real life take so much time?'

Cue me at the current moment. If you've noticed, I haven't blogged since last Wednesday. And my blogging hasn't been consistent since before the move. I 100% understand real life is more important than this lil space, but I never expected to feel so overwhelmed, underwhelmed or whelmed [I think you can in Europe] about blogging. Something that used to drive me daily and occupy much of my day is feeling no longer relevant.

If I'm honest I admit it's because I had a lot more time to blog when I was working. I'd use my lunch breaks and moments of time to prep posts, read blogs and get things scheduled for the week. Now my days are filled with other things to do instead of sitting behind a computer. Or, if I do sit behind the computer it's to constantly revise resumes, cover letters and search for new job opportunities. Once I'm done with that fun stuff the last thing I want to do is sit down and do more computer stuff.
I mean, have you seen the lake pictures?

Which is another reason my blog has been a bit quieter in recent weeks. No one has said anything negative, but I don't want to appear braggy or brattish by constantly posting serene lake pictures. Le Husband and I couldn't have lucked out better with family and with our current living situation, this we know and are grateful beyond belief. Staying with family has been a God send in so many, many ways and the fact there is a beautiful lake to unwind next to is a ginormous plus. However, I know many people have had to relocate into much worse and more stressful situations so I am hesitant to make it seem super hunky dory, because it's not always.

There have been stressors I never imagined the past month. There have been tears and howls of frustration. There has been wine. Oh, yes, lots and lots of wine. Yet, I'm not going to post most of the drama because that's not for the world to read and constant complaining is not my jam. So you see I"m struggling to find a balance. I do NOT want to post fluff and 'Everything is so wonderful' when there is a lot more going on under the surface. I'm not one to pretend my life is perfect, since it isn't, that is just not how I roll. However I don't want this place to become a drag or a debbie downer of a blog. That is not me either. So what do I do? Go dark for weeks? Say goodbye to this space? What.DO.I.DO?

Okay, y'all, that is a lot of text. Wow, I didn't realize I had all of those words rolling around in my head. Honestly I feel 100% better now they are all down on paper, or online, ha. Hopefully I'll figure out the blogging mojo soon, because I do miss all of my fabulous friends. Y'all have been so incredibly supportive in my new adventure and I sorely miss visiting your lil spaces everyday. Fingers crossed.

And since there isn't a picture I'll share one from yesterday. This week is all about BODYPUMP as I'm teaching five classes since many instructors are out on vacation. Did I mention it was launch week? Yup, teaching the NEW BODYPUMP98 release the next two weeks. I took this quick snap after my first class of the day and second of the week. I only have two more, woohoo.

Hope everyone has a fabulous rest of their day and week! < 3 y'all dearly!