Then and Now...

WOW, October is actually here. The month of TRUE fall, halloween and of course, Vegas for kickball. I honestly can't beleve it's that time of year already. Wow, just wow.

I've particpated in various blog every day in blank month, and while it's been fun, it's a lot of work. But, I thought, why not participate every now and then just for gigs [that means giggles ;)]. Today I'm linking up with Taylor and Helene for #Blogtember14.

The prompt: Dream job when you were little/ what is it now?

Then...I wanted to be President. The end. First woman President of the good ol US of A. In every school time line, where we had to write papers, essays or paragraphs on 'What I want to Be When I Grow Up' I wrote President. My parents, who always told me I could be anything, believed me, but I think everyone else though, 'whatever, kid'. It wasn't until high school, when I learned how different my government views were from my peers and how much I didn't completely understand politics that I lost the dream.

Changing the world and making it a better place was what I wanted to do. I had no interested in the back handed, sneaky, back door deals that came along with politics, and frankly, I didn't have the stomach for it all back then. Now, I'm a lil wiser, snarkier and a better quick thinker on my feet, but back then I would have been eaten alive.

After that dream died, I decided I wanted to go into sports broadcasting, but didn't fully understand the work that meant. My college wasn't known for their journalism program [although it's grown a lot since I've been there] so I didn't get the internship opportunities I needed while in school. I've done some broadcasting for a public access channel that reported high school sports, but sadly my job conflicted so I lost that dream too. It's still a sore spot, I stink.

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Now... I just want to be a stay at home mom. I don't have kids, yet, but I grew up with a SAHM and so I've always wanted to be one. Honestly, when I was little I thought everyone's mom was a SAHM, that drove carpools, made dinners and was on the PTA. Yes, I realize how nauseating and ridiculous that sounds, but I also didn't know any friends that had divorced parents until I was in high school. Obviously, I was a lil sheltered.

Before I go any further, let me say that I think working moms rock. I know many friends that choose to be working moms and others that are unable to be SAHMs so they have to work and I think they are all rockstars. 100%!!! [So please, don't think I'm talking down or badly about working moms. This is just me, talking about what I want to be, in my life.]

Since playing house in elementary school, I've always had a dream to be a mom. I really want to be home with my kid[s] to play with them, teach them, cook for them, drive them places and just be there for them whether they want me there or not.

My mom was able to attend all of my school functions. She was team mom on all of my sports teams, in HS and in college. She drove down to my University during the week to watch me play soccer, because she could, which I loved. Sure there were times in high school where I was mad she didn't have a job, because I wanted be like everyone else and watch MTV after school [no tv on week nights....seriously]. But, it was amazing having her home, always there when we needed her and I want to be that to my children.

Right now, it seems like it will be a possibly and that makes me hopeful. However, I know that life is unexpected and there might need to be some compromises for me to have that dream. I'm thankful that Le Husband is 100% on board and willing to be the bread winner, that's huge, huge, huge. We've talked about the future and sometimes I'll mention the ginormous house, for fun and he'll just look at me and say "Guess you won't be a SAHM then". Touche, honey, touche!

I'm not quite ready to be a mom, or pregnamnt for that matter, but I'm excited about the future. I hope that the plans I have, line up with God's [haha, did you just hear Him laugh? yeah me too], and I'm really hopeful that I'll get to be mom to a sweet lil family, sometimes soon in the future.

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What did you want to be and what do you want to be now?