January has been a month of struggle for me regarding fitness, because I want to attempt something big. There were two big challenges on the table and I've taken my time deciding exactly WHICH challenge I want to take on this year. Part of what held me back was my fear of failure. I didn't want to set a challenge and then fail at it, especially if I told people WHAT I'm attempting, both IRL and here. As silly as it sounds, I don't want to let people down and I don't want people to view me as someone that 'can't hack it'.
But, that all changed on my flight home from Dallas a week ago today. Le Husband randomly picked up 'Outside' magazine, a new one to both of us, and while he slept on the flight I perused because I couldn't sleep. There were some great articles, but one article REALLY stood out in my mind. Pro athlete, Kevin Korver of the Atlanta Hawks, is an all start super shooter but also and incredible athlete with an INCREDIBLE sense of challenge and inspiration. Below is my favorite part of the article.
"We've evolved with a desire to challenge ourselves. It was necessary to get the tribe over the pass in winter, to hunt the mammoth. Now we live in the center of the table. We're afraid to fail. F*** That! How can you reach the edge of your potential without risking failure"
Wow, right? I reread that quote probably ten times and really sat back and thought about how much I've let my fear prevent me from trying. Don't get me wrong, I take chances, but fitness challenges can bring out the shy-shy in my ego. Failing at fitness is mentally breaks me, so I try not to set TOO high of a goal. I want to avoid the fear of not reaching what I set out to do.
But, that changes now. Today begins my journey of going for my 2015 fitness goal. I've verbalized it to a select few people so it's real. There is no turning back. I will be doing everything I can to achieve this goal and I hope to bring some good news to blog land in a few months. I'm back to logging my foot in My FitnessPal [be my friend *here*] and finding new ways to fuel my body with healthy alternatives. Tonight's dessert is two TBS of peanut butter and three TBS of whipped with a dash of cinnamon. Not as good as froyo, but it's a start in the right direction.
Now don't worry. This blog isn't going to become a solo fitness blog, I don't have the drive or knowledge base for that kind of thing. But, you'll probably see some more workouts and clean eat recipes here because that's where my life is going.
I'm scared. I'm excited. I'm nervous. And I'm ready to rock this ish!
Linking up *here* today!