September 15, 2014

When the Bough Breaks

The kickball bough. This weekend we had a tournament in VA Beach and it sucked. Don't believe me?!?!

This weekend I...

::: dropped three catches at 2nd base.

::: missed two plays at 3rd base.

::: popped up twice.

::: one led into a double play.

::: had a home run kicked over mine and another girl's head.

::: fought with Le Husband because of my struggles.

::: lost in the semi's.

::: played three games in our women's league, but only played in five innings total.

::: won the playoffs, but didn't contribute so the win felt hollow.

Not my normal fun weekend post huh? I thought about phoning it in, but I'd rather look back and be real about everything. But, I totally understand if you click the red X now and move on to another, happier recap. No hard feelings, just come back tomorrow, okay??!!?

It's been a bit of a struggle this year with kickball. Our coed team has been struggling since last year, and only won two tournaments this year. We had a come to Jesus meeting and things got better, but there has been a bit of a divide. I was super amped to play on an all women's team, because I was super confident in our two captions and felt I could really make a difference on the team.

Unfortunately there are politics to deal with, both in coed and on the women's team and things have not be going well. I understand not playing when I don't play well, but watching people play, that aren't better than me, really grinds my gears, on both teams. I honestly thought I left politics and sports behind in college, but apparently I didn't.

Politics suck, but playing poorly sucks even more. This tournament was LEGIT my worst tournament to date, since 2010. Since working with Le Husband to get better, I average about a dropped catch a year, maybe two and that's something that makes me proud. I don't miss plays at second base, and I'd been making awesome catches at first and third all year until this tournament. Having multiple misses is unacceptable, in my opinion, and if we had brought fifth girl, I would have pulled myself from the line up for eliminations games because I felt I was hurting the team. For whatever reason, I couldn't get myself back into the zone and just couldn't find my groove offensively either. Saturday was a day that really made me question why I play the game.

I'm hopeful, with a lil pracice that I can get back on track and that my 'love' of the game will come back. I can't stand playing poorly and it really messes with my confidence and my weekend when I do. I wish I had a Mulligan for this weekend, but unfortunately today is Monday and there's nothing I can do about the past.

What do you do when something you love gets you down? Or when something that you're passionate about takes a turn for the eh?!!? I could use all the advice you can give today!

How was your weekend? Hopefully better than mine, right!?

Linking up with these beautiful ladies < 3

25 comments:

BLovedBoston said...

I'm sorry to hear that your weekend wasn't what you had hoped for. I think you totally figured out what you need to do - a little more practice because politics is very hard to change on a team or in a company environment!! I'm sure your next tournament will be great!! Happy Monday love!!

Kristen said...

oh honey! this truly sucks. i am nowhere near as active as you, but i am running more consistently now and its so hard and discouraging to hit all these goals i already hit years ago, you know? like this used to be easy, i used to be better, i used to be faster. but the only thing i can do is keep trying. maybe the politics and whatnot are subconsciously making you 'blecch' about the game, thus playing poorly? you know? because you know you've done better and can do better, so it's not that. i hope it improves girly!

Annie {Home of Malones} said...

I hate that your weekend didn't go as planned but I have to say that I'm pretty impressed with your passion for adult kickball! I never got into it but wish I had. Those copa mondel cleats bring me way back to my soccer days!

Courtney B said...

Girl, I am sorry it was such a rough weekend!! I would say don't give up! It's not always going to be smooth sailing, but when you love something so much, and have a passion for it (which you totally do!) it's worth it to push through and get to the good again!

Jessica said...

So sorry it was a tough weekend, sweet girl. But you know what, next time will be much better - I know it. You've got a positive attitude, and know where you need to improve. And you will do it. You are a go-getter. Thanks for sharing your heart today. It's tough to share the not-so-fun stuff sometimes, but it definitely helps your readers keep in touch with the real you. Love you!

Kelly Elizabeth said...
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Kelly Elizabeth said...

LOVE LOVE LOVE your pink pants! So Cute! Remember to not let team politics and off days steal your joy! Keep your chin up girlie!

Illegally Blonde said...

Aww sorry BOFF. You are your own worst critic and enemy, so I know it could not be that bad, but I understand. I know how it sucks when you know you are off. And politics.... ugh. Perhaps its why I gave up sports after college. xoxo

Mree said...

Sorry to hear about your game. Today is another day and the next game will be better! Don't be so hard on yourself. In other news, those pants are super cute on you!!

Em said...

Aww I'm so sorry to hear about your game :(. *BIG HUGS. Whenever something I love gets me down, I usually take a step back and take a break for a little bit to refocus. This usually involves spoiling myself with some shopping and a mani/pedi to pick up my spirits. :)

Kelly Mock said...

Oh no! Maybe that means you are due for a really good week! I hope so!

Amanda Elizabeth - Meet @ the Barre said...

I listened to Mark talk all weekend about his softball team and the drama and politics of that and all I could think about when he was talking was "we are talking about MENS softball right?"

Your Beauty Fix said...

I agree with Kelly. Maybe you were meant to have a bummy weekend so that something AMAZING could come your way. Fighting with the hubby is never fun but im sure there are moments when hes grumpy and takes it out on you unintentionally. Its give and take. Brighter days are coming your way soon!!!

Kristen @ Your Beauty Fix

Penny said...

Hey -- I'm impressed you play kickball at all!! Hang in there. It's good to hear your honesty.
Penny @ pennyspassion.blogspot.com

Penny said...

Hey -- I'm impressed you play kickball at all!! Hang in there. It's good to hear your honesty.
Penny @ pennyspassion.blogspot.com

Shelby / Recent Somethings said...

Aw boo. My weekend was boring so thus, a makeup DIY ha. But I'm sorry this one got you down. Just remember why you loved it in the first place and hopefully things will get better again soon :)

Julia said...

Ugh, hate politics and drama! I'm sorry you had a crappy weekend, I hope your week gets much better! I don't play any sports, but I know how frustrating it is to just feel "off" and like you can't seem to do as well as you usually do at something. I think sometimes that just happens, and it's not because you're not good, you just had an "off" day. It will get better I'm sure!

The Siberian American said...

I'm so sorry to hear you had a rough weekend. I absolutely hate politics and drama on a team. I hope it gets better for you soon!

Julie said...

Sorry to hear about your weekend. I hate when politics enter the fun atmosphere. My hubby plays on a soccer team like that and he's walked out several times because of stuff that appears on the field. You just had an off day and I'm sure things will turn around!

Stopping by from the mingle :)

Erin LFF said...

Sorry to hear about your struggles girl :( Although I don't play organized sports now, I still know the feeling and it isn't a fun one. It's okay to feel crappy for a little bit, but that feeling will fade and the fun will come back- I promise! HUGS!

Amanda - Voyage of the MeeMee said...

Blech. Ups and downs... there's no escaping them - even when it comes to something you LOVE! Just try to remember that the good outweighs the bad... and if there's ever a point where it doesn't, FUCK IT! :)

Lara @ Cookies Cardio and Clothes said...

ugh! politics stink! Hopefully the next tournament is better!

JumpingJE said...

Don't ever get discouraged by an off weekend, friend! It's only human to make a few mistakes,

Ines RdP said...

hello sweetie!!
I`m here the first time & I wanna stay!
How about follow each other?? I always follow back when I propose it :)
I tell you that because I really love your blog! WOW!
Pics so inspiring & descritpions are great!!!!
so let me know sweetie!

have a nice day!
keep in touch :)
kisses

Carolyn said...

Ugh. I'm sorry sweet friend! Try to remember all the fun you've had kickballing - and try to get back to that! Everyone has off days, but I promise - you're a kickballing champ! With really cute pink socks. :)