May 20, 2013

Blog Every Day in May [Day 20]

Day 20, Monday: Get real. Share something you're struggling with right now.
I'm struggling with that HORRID



I've blogged about it MANY times the
past two years.

As mentioned in previous posts,I know I'm petite and in decent shape,so this issue might strike you as way outta line. BUT! I don't wanna be in decent shape and look okay. I wanna look HOT! I wanna look FIT!

I wanna feel and look
 how I felt/looked three years ago.

I'm struggling to get back to that body and that girl and it's driving me nuts. I feel like every step forward I take, a few weeks/months later I take 230482308 steps back. This blog has become one of those blogs
where every month or so I'm complaining about my weight or lack of fitness.

And honestly, I hate it.

I was never that girl.

I was always the girl craving curves.

I was the girl who could eat WHATEVER she wanted and still stayed trim AND FIT! I never understood why girls in college complained about their weight and had issues keeping bad weight off. Well, now I get their pain. What's really killer is the fact I don't have the willpower and strength to stay the course when it comes to food and fitness.

I'm not someone who can change just one THING and see results [side eye to all you ladies that can]. I have to constantly manage and watch calories in to calories out with fitness if I want to achieve MY GOAL. It's annoying that this bothers me so much but being fit and athletic has always been HOW I'VE DEFINED MYSELF in the secular world.

There is a plan in action and so far this week has been pretty good. I'm just hoping I can keep it up
for the rest of the summer so I can FEEL comfortable in my own skin and in a swim suit.


Jenn said...

I know how it feels when you don't look the way that you want, even tho to someone else you look great. Hopefully, the small changes you make will make a difference and all of the sports and exercising you do helps get you to feeling that you're where you wanna be.
And, just because, I think you look perfectly great! :)

Anonymous said...

I feel the same way right now! Staying fit is not how it use to be! Damn getting older! But I think you look beautiful! Try not to be so hard on yourself = )

Alana Christine said...

I want to look like that too! haha. I do miss the days of not worrying about my weight...

Illegally Blonde said...

This is my same struggle. Ever since I moved out and had the big D I have gained like 10 pounds. I found my goal pic last night and just want to cry. Its so hard now sitting at a desk all day working late and then not wanting to cook anything when I get home. I will be accountable with you friend. You work towards your wedding, Ill work towards getting myself back! Love you

Aleshea said...

Girl you look amazing. I will just leave it at that as I drink this NASTY protein shake

Claudz said...

Are we as women destined to always face the damn weight challenge? You look amazing in that picture!! I wish I had looked like that just once.

Carolyn said...

Ugh. I hear you. I'm right there with you. Stupid metabolism slowing down with age! :( I think you're gorgey the way you are, but I totally get it!

Cece said...

Weight is always a real hot button issue for me. Uggh!! Eating right and sticking to exercise is harder the older you are not only because you are older but you just have so much on your plate. It's one of those things that even if you just try to say forget it I don't care it still bothers you so you end up having to keep trying to do something about it. Keep at it!