October 31, 2017

Not a Horrible Halloween This Year

Dramatic much, with the blog post? Yes, a lil dramatic but hey, in my mind it's warranted. Here's why.

Last year, on Halloween, I started the job from hades. I knew it was going to be hellacious, I cried when I accepted the job, I cried on my way home from my first day of training and I cried probably every week I was there. Awful, awful. 

I remember crying to Lynn and my sisters every day driving home the first week. And worrying I wouldn't be able to handle everything. Worrying about my life going forward. Worrying about people not showing up for shifts. Worrying, worrying, worrying. Yet knowing this was one of two full-time job offers I'd received in six months and this one was the 'right' one to take

Because the other one was easy. In an office. Something I was trying to get away from at the time. This one was the job people helped me get. Went out on a limb for with recommendations. So, naturally I couldn't turn it down after it was offered. Buck up, buttercup and all that jazz right?

Y'all, it was bad, no it was worse than I imagined. I had a feeling it would be chaos, a gut feeling in my stomach this was NOT for me and I was 100% correct. I mean, a full on three day gallbladder attack the weekend before my job starts must have been someone kind of warning, right? Because this job took a lot out of me.

Because of this job my health suffered. Because of this job I found myself floundering again. Because of this job I was tested. Because of this job I became someone I never believed could exist. Because of this job I didn't sleep. Because of this job I cried everyday. Because of this job fights with Le Husband happened frequently. Because of this job I doubted myself. Because of this job, I quit.

Before you stop reading because you think I'm ungrateful, trust me, I get it. I 100% understand that the job from hades was still THE JOB I prayed for so many many months. The job that took me from part time to full-time. From no benefits to benefits. From zero management skills to management of a team of sixteen. This job made me believe I could be a personal trainer full-time. This job brought me to some incredible friendships and people. This job taught me more about myself than I ever knew. This job qualified us for a house. This job was the first stepping stone towards a different life. 

Now here I am, a year later. On the brink of beginning my personal training career. Something I never in A MILLION years expected. One small step at a horrible job, made it all possible. 

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Wishing you and yours a fun, safe and happy halloween!

8 comments:

  1. that's called 'paying your dues' which sucks balls but is a must! also, it just makes us appreciate what we have / our path right now, doesn't it?

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  2. So incredibly proud of you! Look how far you have come in just a year. xoxo

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  3. So happy you're on the path meant for you now. Sometimes we need the humps in life to get to where we're supposed to be. I truly believe that.

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  4. Love that meme, it is so true! Adversity sometimes brings us to a great place, which it certainly has for you!

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  5. What a crazy reminder of how much things can change in just a year! While I hate that you had to go through such a hard job, you're so right that you learned so much and got some great experience from it while you were there!

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  6. That meme is so true!!! You are awesome and I hope you have a great Halloween!

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  7. It's amazing how right our gut instincts can be. Love that meme, and definitely need to apply it to my current situation. SO happy you're in a much better place sweet friend <3
    Green Fashionista

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  8. I'm so glad that you're in a place where you can look back and see how that experience got you to where you are. I'm really bad at that... and now, I can't wait to see where you go with what you've done so far! ;)

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